do you find it very intersting that most of us are frustrated about something most of the time? i mean, if it isn't relationships (or lack thereof), then it is job, or family, or friends (or lack thereof,) or the weather, or, well, whatever.
tonight i was frustrated about volleyball. i dont know why, but maybe i am just doing too much of it. but i got really frustrated at my team (my adult team) because we didn't win, nor did we push ourselves. i feel like we are mediocre and are cool with it.
the same goes with my team i coach. i really feel like these girls try... like they push themselves to get better. but you have to understand, they are better then their performance. why do they settle short?
hmmm, maybe i do the same thing time and time again. we can all be soo much more as individuals. i mean we are made in the image of God! that is pretty powerful. yet we still are very petty, and we sin, and we like to disbelieve... or worse, we stop challenging our beliefs and accept the american viewpoint on christianity.
what about our jobs... i am sure that we are up to like 10% of each day, on average, surfing the internet, and like 30% is taken up by emails or something like that. luckily, my job is not like that so i dont have to rely on computers as much as i dont have to be infront of them to do my business, wholely. i can spend a whole day or even two away from my computer and still get a lot of progress done in regards to work.
i hope eventually everyone can get back to relationships.
guess i fell a little scatterbrained again tonight, but i know that before computers, we knew shop owners and mechanics, and even salesmen! now we only shop for the best deal possible. its our wallets that matter, not the building of community. if you knew that a local shop was to be bought out by some national chain, i would HOPE you would make an effort to stop that by going to support your local business.
now, if we all agree to that, why do we still not do it! or only do it when it comes to a situation where there might be a decision made. we are so reactionary as people, aarrrgh, it drives me crazy.
i do and would spend extra money at local places, why? to keep them local. to know that the owner probably lives down the block... but most importantly, to know that i am buying from someone that believes in his/her product.
do you get it?
what's the most important thing in life? really? relationships, plain and simple.
then why are we so quick to judge and so eager to save money then to know who you are buying from?
dont worry, i am a hypocrite also. but i think i am going in the right direction. i really do. i know there are good people out there.
ok, ok... enough rambling for now.
tata
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
sad state of affairs
i'll admit it... i'm hopeless :) not in the sense of success, life, love, self appreciation... but in the sense of bad habits. i have been on this kick to really get up early and get my day going. the struggle has come since college and is really rearing its ugly head now that i dont *really* have to be anywhere in particular in the morning.
skiing, hiking, have-to's give me absolutely no problems of waking up early, but work, life, and the daily grind give me the hardest time. i dont get it. i **know** i am not a morning person, but i think i can become one... they say "nothing good happens after 9pm" right? so, why not be in bed by 11 or so and then really get up early (for me, that is between 6-6:30). my day would be soo much better and i would feel stronger and healthier.
any suggestions? all you morning people out there, let me know the secret. and please do not say put the alarm clock really far away. i need new motivation, not another excuse to 'get up on the wrong side of bed'
that being said, not only am i lazy in the morning, but i eat like crap. i hate grocery shopping and so i never have food at home. that leaves me with frugal eating out... wendy's has been my favorite lately, but i think my artories are slowly (or quickly) clogging.
every once in a while, i will buy stuff, but it seems to go bad or i just dont get the time or make the time to eat properly.
maybe if i got up earlier?...
as i am writing this blog, i am looking disgustly over at my leftover taco bell, yep, leftover taco bell. i am actually embarressed to even get up to the microwave at work and heat it up. ok, ok, it will produce a pleasant wafting for lunch, but people will start asking what i am eating... what do i say? NOT leftover taco bell. so i might just say mexican (if you can call it that), but they will probably ask where i got it from. my reply 'a little place by my house :)'
i hope it wont get to that, i think i can time it where i get in and out without being noticed and eat in peace. yeah, that is what i will do.
so, off to get some lunch and to comteplate on getting up early tomorrow
i need a wife :)
peace
skiing, hiking, have-to's give me absolutely no problems of waking up early, but work, life, and the daily grind give me the hardest time. i dont get it. i **know** i am not a morning person, but i think i can become one... they say "nothing good happens after 9pm" right? so, why not be in bed by 11 or so and then really get up early (for me, that is between 6-6:30). my day would be soo much better and i would feel stronger and healthier.
any suggestions? all you morning people out there, let me know the secret. and please do not say put the alarm clock really far away. i need new motivation, not another excuse to 'get up on the wrong side of bed'
that being said, not only am i lazy in the morning, but i eat like crap. i hate grocery shopping and so i never have food at home. that leaves me with frugal eating out... wendy's has been my favorite lately, but i think my artories are slowly (or quickly) clogging.
every once in a while, i will buy stuff, but it seems to go bad or i just dont get the time or make the time to eat properly.
maybe if i got up earlier?...
as i am writing this blog, i am looking disgustly over at my leftover taco bell, yep, leftover taco bell. i am actually embarressed to even get up to the microwave at work and heat it up. ok, ok, it will produce a pleasant wafting for lunch, but people will start asking what i am eating... what do i say? NOT leftover taco bell. so i might just say mexican (if you can call it that), but they will probably ask where i got it from. my reply 'a little place by my house :)'
i hope it wont get to that, i think i can time it where i get in and out without being noticed and eat in peace. yeah, that is what i will do.
so, off to get some lunch and to comteplate on getting up early tomorrow
i need a wife :)
peace
Thursday, March 16, 2006
Another rediscovery
ok,
after reading this title, you are all probably thinking... 'great, another one of eric's introspective time periods in his life.' well, yep, that's me.
not only am i going through a change in my life in regards to my dating life (or lack there of at this point), but am trying to do a rediscovery at work. i am starting to work with a coach that will not only create an energy and motivation to rediscover myself as 'eric, the realtor' but also figure out what i really want.
she asked me this question when we met on tuesday.. 'eric, what do you want to be known for?' -- umm, i thought we were going to be talking about systems and networking and distinction... yikes. so i kinda sat there and turned and said... 'i want people to be happy.' which she noted that only if i benefit also... ouch :)
so that is where the dialog started. why am i doing real estate... who cares. what do i want to be known for... that matters.
for the next couple we are going to figure out what is it that makes me tick and then directly apply it to my career. it is not the question as to why i am doing real estate, but really, what do i want to be? i mean fully... pretty interesting. i feel like i am going to have some introspective moments soon. that means great blog material, right?
not only will i benefit, but you all get to read about my struggles :)
i did come up with something interesting... as the dialog progressed, i had this statement run through my mind: ' i lack clarity, and i hate it. i want people to not feel that.'
this boils down below all that stability, sanity, world perception bs. i mean this is for real. i am really going to gain clarity or die trying. it is truly necessary for me cause i need to not only let people love me, but to love as well. job, shmob... i mean that will be the focus of action, ill get my clarity a bit then apply it to me as a realtor. (seriously, personal and business life are not separate in this business, not matter what they say).
stay tooned.
yo
after reading this title, you are all probably thinking... 'great, another one of eric's introspective time periods in his life.' well, yep, that's me.
not only am i going through a change in my life in regards to my dating life (or lack there of at this point), but am trying to do a rediscovery at work. i am starting to work with a coach that will not only create an energy and motivation to rediscover myself as 'eric, the realtor' but also figure out what i really want.
she asked me this question when we met on tuesday.. 'eric, what do you want to be known for?' -- umm, i thought we were going to be talking about systems and networking and distinction... yikes. so i kinda sat there and turned and said... 'i want people to be happy.' which she noted that only if i benefit also... ouch :)
so that is where the dialog started. why am i doing real estate... who cares. what do i want to be known for... that matters.
for the next couple we are going to figure out what is it that makes me tick and then directly apply it to my career. it is not the question as to why i am doing real estate, but really, what do i want to be? i mean fully... pretty interesting. i feel like i am going to have some introspective moments soon. that means great blog material, right?
not only will i benefit, but you all get to read about my struggles :)
i did come up with something interesting... as the dialog progressed, i had this statement run through my mind: ' i lack clarity, and i hate it. i want people to not feel that.'
this boils down below all that stability, sanity, world perception bs. i mean this is for real. i am really going to gain clarity or die trying. it is truly necessary for me cause i need to not only let people love me, but to love as well. job, shmob... i mean that will be the focus of action, ill get my clarity a bit then apply it to me as a realtor. (seriously, personal and business life are not separate in this business, not matter what they say).
stay tooned.
yo
Thursday, March 09, 2006
it's thursday night and i'm at a coffee house
so i haven't been all that positive lately. it seems like life is just a little brash on me currently and, well, normally it ain't no thing... this time it is rubbing me the wrong way. though, the positives of this whole bit is that i really, really get to love and respect this thing called coffee. it has to be one of god's greatest gifts to man, hands down. that and pancakes.so, when i get a little down, what do i do, say "screw it!" to my two cup max and just drug myself silly with the killer juice. ahhh, sweet killer juice.
anyway, you are all probably wondering why i am so down and why i am raving soo much about coffee. i wont tell you about either of them. but i will say that im in position to bounce back. all i need is a couple of good days in the 60's and things seem to clear up quite nice :) that is the great thing about denver, it really encourages you when you think about all the good things it provides (weather and mountains).
i guess that means i am getting more and more settled here in this wonderful town and want all you all to move out here. i mean it. move here. you wont regret it.
seriously, what are you leaving behind? family, jobs, friends, relationships, churches, communities, what... those are all replaceable :) j/k at least i am here.
so, as i sit here at one of my favorite coffee joints, i am writing contracts, doing research, trying to think about all things that relate to life, get clarified on who i am, what i want, how things are going, how motivated i really am... you know the biggies.
at least my soul is calm right now, ben harper always makes me contemplate life and my ipod makes it easy to listen to him. my phone makes it easy to take pictures, and my computer makes it easy to upload it. that means that you all get real time images of me (and my coffee cup :) )
anyway, i dont think i have really said anything of importance, nor has it been relevent to you all... but that is where i am at right at this moment.
off to im to chris p chicken. ill write something more soon enough.
peace
Friday, March 03, 2006
friday
another month has come and gone... this time stuff is soo ridiculous. It is truly amazing how time passes, or at least how it is percieved to pass.
i guess, when you get busy and have a lot going on, time just cruises along, you cant really stop it. the only thing that would actually pause time, would be to constantly look at it, and that isn't much fun.
well, i got back from vegas for a real estate convention and things are just crazy, my personal life is packed, my business is busy and i am tired all around. when you get in that mode, things just dont slow down. a vacation is out of the picture, so i just have to really concentrate on the time i have and try and use it to the fullest.
i also might be taking a different team for coaching. the head guy at crush wants me to coach the 15-2's team and i was just getting into the assistant groove. i tell you, you can not count on things to last very long these days :) you set up your life as such and bang, things change. oh well.
just a quick update... of to a meeting (with coffee of course) and then phone calls and marketing today.
bye!
i guess, when you get busy and have a lot going on, time just cruises along, you cant really stop it. the only thing that would actually pause time, would be to constantly look at it, and that isn't much fun.
well, i got back from vegas for a real estate convention and things are just crazy, my personal life is packed, my business is busy and i am tired all around. when you get in that mode, things just dont slow down. a vacation is out of the picture, so i just have to really concentrate on the time i have and try and use it to the fullest.
i also might be taking a different team for coaching. the head guy at crush wants me to coach the 15-2's team and i was just getting into the assistant groove. i tell you, you can not count on things to last very long these days :) you set up your life as such and bang, things change. oh well.
just a quick update... of to a meeting (with coffee of course) and then phone calls and marketing today.
bye!
Friday, February 17, 2006
brrrrr
it's supa cold outside today! high of only 25!!! yikes. i dont know about you, but i get this horrible tightening in my lower back when it is too cold outside. it is really 
uncomfortable... only thing that keeps me going is the thought of warm things, like hot chocolate, blankets, fires, hot tubs, whiskey, you know, the basics.
i know what you are thinking, "what a wimp..." well, yep, i admit it. i am now a true cold wimp. i dont like cold weather, it doesn't appeal to me, i want nothing to do with it... except when i ski, but that is the mountains. i can separate my coldness when i go to the mountains because i "expect" it to be cold. expectations are key, in denver, it should never be cold, nor cloudy (i do like a few rainy days a year, say 15, maybe 20) but in the mountains, it is ok.
we have had record amounts of snow and skiing in powder is one of the coolest feelings. you know i am having a good time when i giggle... i do it on roller coasters and when i ski pow pow. how else to express the feeling. reneau will know (feb '05).
but, for the rest of today and this weekend, i have to stuggle in the cold weather. i guess wine and blankets are in order.
oh, i do get to go to las vegas next week for a real estate convention. yikes, 12,000 crazy keller williams real estate agents taking over las vegas... should be fun.
have to finish up work for the day and then i can ponder pow pow and all that good stuff... sweet vail of last year.. ahhh, sweet copper this year. i will be hitting powder in march, that is for sure.
yo
uncomfortable... only thing that keeps me going is the thought of warm things, like hot chocolate, blankets, fires, hot tubs, whiskey, you know, the basics.i know what you are thinking, "what a wimp..." well, yep, i admit it. i am now a true cold wimp. i dont like cold weather, it doesn't appeal to me, i want nothing to do with it... except when i ski, but that is the mountains. i can separate my coldness when i go to the mountains because i "expect" it to be cold. expectations are key, in denver, it should never be cold, nor cloudy (i do like a few rainy days a year, say 15, maybe 20) but in the mountains, it is ok.
we have had record amounts of snow and skiing in powder is one of the coolest feelings. you know i am having a good time when i giggle... i do it on roller coasters and when i ski pow pow. how else to express the feeling. reneau will know (feb '05).
but, for the rest of today and this weekend, i have to stuggle in the cold weather. i guess wine and blankets are in order.
oh, i do get to go to las vegas next week for a real estate convention. yikes, 12,000 crazy keller williams real estate agents taking over las vegas... should be fun.
have to finish up work for the day and then i can ponder pow pow and all that good stuff... sweet vail of last year.. ahhh, sweet copper this year. i will be hitting powder in march, that is for sure.
yo
Thursday, February 09, 2006
today was a good day
it is really nice to have one of those really good days... i woke up early, had coffee with phil and we took a nice walk up for the sunrise in the foothills of my beautiful Golden city. we chatted about life and love and loss and what not, talked biz and got on.
the day rolled forward with appointments and meetings and things just seemed to click... had lots of good conversations with clients and friends and family... just a catch up day. i usually take off on thursdays, but i am taking off on sunday instead, so using today effectively feels good.
i have a bunch of junk i need to get done tomorrow and i have a good outlook on getting it done... but just all around good week.
supposed to be cold tomorrow, so time for the scarf and jacket again. yikes. chilly air. i am definitely ready for the spring time! spring in Denver is sooo nice; big snow, flowers, 70s, slush, bright skies, later evenings, smiles, sales, mmmmm sounds great.
anyway, off to chat with elvi. i get to hear about the exciting happenings of nashville. hopefully, things are on the up and up out there. oh -- mary, to answer your question: at least a year, maybe more :(
peace <-- click here
the day rolled forward with appointments and meetings and things just seemed to click... had lots of good conversations with clients and friends and family... just a catch up day. i usually take off on thursdays, but i am taking off on sunday instead, so using today effectively feels good.
i have a bunch of junk i need to get done tomorrow and i have a good outlook on getting it done... but just all around good week.
supposed to be cold tomorrow, so time for the scarf and jacket again. yikes. chilly air. i am definitely ready for the spring time! spring in Denver is sooo nice; big snow, flowers, 70s, slush, bright skies, later evenings, smiles, sales, mmmmm sounds great.
anyway, off to chat with elvi. i get to hear about the exciting happenings of nashville. hopefully, things are on the up and up out there. oh -- mary, to answer your question: at least a year, maybe more :(
peace <-- click here
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Feb 7th
can you all believe that it is feb 7th already? pretty soon we will be smiling at the dusky sky at 9pm in the evening... cant wait
well, i am feeling a bit better. i have decided to get on, can't stay blue for too long. even though i am constantly stressed, i still feel exhillerated anytime i drive home and drive between south and north table mountains to settle in my home.
new?
well, i am again coaching volleyball... well, assistant coaching. i am an assistant coach to the 14 navy (that is the number 1 14's team) for Crush Volleyball Club. we practice on the weekday nights and have a couple tourneys a month on sunday. sweet. i am pretty excited because i get to really sharpen my coaching skills so i can be more effective next year. the head coach has been doing this for 14 years, so i should learn a bit. he's an engineer too, so we will have many really petty statistical arguements, just kidding.
lets see, i am still sore from skiing, not boarding, but skiing. i think that sport is better for me. dont get me wrong, i love to board and i will board for the rest of my life... but i can do soooo much more and cover soo much more of the mountain on a ski. partially because i am much better on skis, but also because a board makes it really hard to do bumps.. and well, i love bumps. but, bumps kill my quads and i feel like a grandpa :)
other than that, just doing the real estate thing. still struggling, but this is my breakout year. looking forward to the future, and the spring when i have some breathing room.
we will see, maybe i will be holding a cup out with a nice cardboard sign that says something about 'anything helps' :) well, that wont work too much longer in denver seeing they (hickenlooper) are trying to eradicate homelessness in 10 years. ahhh, sweet idealism. i love it... being a socialist of sorts.. but greedly people tend to win :(
let me give you some quick advice:
dont do a long distance relationship... it sucks!
peace
well, i am feeling a bit better. i have decided to get on, can't stay blue for too long. even though i am constantly stressed, i still feel exhillerated anytime i drive home and drive between south and north table mountains to settle in my home.
new?
well, i am again coaching volleyball... well, assistant coaching. i am an assistant coach to the 14 navy (that is the number 1 14's team) for Crush Volleyball Club. we practice on the weekday nights and have a couple tourneys a month on sunday. sweet. i am pretty excited because i get to really sharpen my coaching skills so i can be more effective next year. the head coach has been doing this for 14 years, so i should learn a bit. he's an engineer too, so we will have many really petty statistical arguements, just kidding.
lets see, i am still sore from skiing, not boarding, but skiing. i think that sport is better for me. dont get me wrong, i love to board and i will board for the rest of my life... but i can do soooo much more and cover soo much more of the mountain on a ski. partially because i am much better on skis, but also because a board makes it really hard to do bumps.. and well, i love bumps. but, bumps kill my quads and i feel like a grandpa :)
other than that, just doing the real estate thing. still struggling, but this is my breakout year. looking forward to the future, and the spring when i have some breathing room.
we will see, maybe i will be holding a cup out with a nice cardboard sign that says something about 'anything helps' :) well, that wont work too much longer in denver seeing they (hickenlooper) are trying to eradicate homelessness in 10 years. ahhh, sweet idealism. i love it... being a socialist of sorts.. but greedly people tend to win :(
let me give you some quick advice:
dont do a long distance relationship... it sucks!
peace
Sunday, January 29, 2006
blue
so i have been down lately... elvi's in nashville and i haven't been in a good mood lately. which means that i haven't been interested in writing about trite junk about my life. sorry.
give me a couple days... and mary, dont move me to your 'infrequent update' blog list, i am on it, just haven't been in a good mood lately.
give me a couple days... and mary, dont move me to your 'infrequent update' blog list, i am on it, just haven't been in a good mood lately.
Monday, January 23, 2006
sorry
been crazy...
was in nashville for all of last week and just getting back into the swing of things.
have some stories.
was in nashville for all of last week and just getting back into the swing of things.
have some stories.
Monday, January 09, 2006
new years
well,
new years was a great time this year... as always. the difference is that my expectations were no super high because i did not expect anything to be that great of a time, as far as parties or bars...
i made it up in my mind that i wanted to be with elvi and that i wanted to toast at a house and not a bar... that was accomplished. elvi and i had a great time in the evening with dinner and relaxing. we ended up going to a party and were then going to meet up with other folk, but they ditched us and we ended up just doing our own thing.
it was nice, some champagne and a brownie with ice cream right at midnight.. cant complain about that.
one of my first really relaxing, chill new years and i have to admit that i really enjoyed it. house parties are fun and with the right people, are great. but just making sure that you have a couple small goals set up and accomplished make new years a success.
i think i will throw a party at my house next year... then i dont have to drive anywhere and worry about people ditchin. if they ditch, i still have my goal, toasting the new year at a house party (alone or with tons of people :)
new years was a great time this year... as always. the difference is that my expectations were no super high because i did not expect anything to be that great of a time, as far as parties or bars...
i made it up in my mind that i wanted to be with elvi and that i wanted to toast at a house and not a bar... that was accomplished. elvi and i had a great time in the evening with dinner and relaxing. we ended up going to a party and were then going to meet up with other folk, but they ditched us and we ended up just doing our own thing.it was nice, some champagne and a brownie with ice cream right at midnight.. cant complain about that.
one of my first really relaxing, chill new years and i have to admit that i really enjoyed it. house parties are fun and with the right people, are great. but just making sure that you have a couple small goals set up and accomplished make new years a success.
i think i will throw a party at my house next year... then i dont have to drive anywhere and worry about people ditchin. if they ditch, i still have my goal, toasting the new year at a house party (alone or with tons of people :)
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
ok i lied, but i will make a promise
here is my list of things i will post over the next few days (3 posts by the weekend is my goal)
ishmael
crash
xmas
new years
2006
skiing
good fun
yay
it'll happen
ishmael
crash
xmas
new years
2006
skiing
good fun
yay
it'll happen
Thursday, December 29, 2005
Friday, December 16, 2005
informational
i am feeling very informational lately. i guess it comes out in the way i talk and even in the way i write. i want to be able to express my 'feelings' better (whatever that means) but i always seem to just relay information.
how do you exactly get around that... i suppose i can, for example, talk about how i 'felt' during an informational piece. ok, lets try it.
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(informational)
yesterday i went skiing, the snow was awesome but it was really cold. a perfect sunny day that did warm up. i ended up on blacks all day long... i found a great hill with tons of bumps but a really, really smooth edge with about a foot or so of powder. i hit bumps for half the hill, then all powder. my last run was on these soft bump blues that make you skip on your board like crazy, well, i rocked them and didn't skip. a great run to end on.
(informational with feelings)
yesterday was my day off for me and i really needed a break from the stress... so i went skiing. when i woke up, i considered sleeping, but i had to meet phil at 6 so i just got up and after the meeting got the courage to head up to the hills. the first half of the trip i listened to some chill music, cant remember exactly, but my guess would be some reggae i had. the last half i put in some great aesop rock to get me in the mood.
since i have a pass, i got out on the hill right away and went to the chairlift. i haphazardly sat with my friend evan who is a very fast skiier... i went with him and my friend, eric, to a-basin and they made me really scared (edited for mother, i.e. did stupid things on skis)... so that was cool, we caught up a bit and skiied together for a few runs. it was so exhilerating the first run, the snow was awesome, but it was a bit cold. after one run, my body was getting warm though. i was really stressed because there were some loose ends on a closing i had today and i needed to get them tied up, obviously. so i stayed inside for a few minutes after a run or two until they were resolved (it was good because it was warm).
thats when i made my transistion to blacks because i rolled solo and felt like doing bumps. i ended up on blacks all day... i found a great hill with tons of bumps but a really, really smooth edge with about a foot or so of powder. i hit bumps for half the hill, then all powder. i really dont think most of you can fathome what it feels like to glid on powder... its really amazing, honestly. you get this feeling of cloudage and a sense that nothing can hurt because when you fall, it doesn't hurt :) all you want to do is smile and laugh while you glide through the softness.
for four runs, that is what i did, killed myself on bumps then cruised on powder. yes, yes. perfect. my last run was on these soft bump blues that make you skip on your board like crazy, well, i rocked them and didn't skip. i had great training with the big bumps that the little ones were easy and super fun... get little pops while flying down passing tons of boarders and skiiers alike (granted it was a blue :) man,a great run to end on. i ended up exhausted in my car with my super confortable shoes once again (i love the feeling of putting shoes on after where boots all day). cruised home with some fiona apple, what a nice way to travel down the mountain.
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ok, so howd i do? was my 'feeling' version good, worth doing, or should i stick to the short and sweet informational version? was the 'felt' version too wordy? not wordy enough? to informational? help me out. i plan to write a little shpiel(sp?) on my new ipod, but would like some critique before hand :)
out.
how do you exactly get around that... i suppose i can, for example, talk about how i 'felt' during an informational piece. ok, lets try it.
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(informational)
yesterday i went skiing, the snow was awesome but it was really cold. a perfect sunny day that did warm up. i ended up on blacks all day long... i found a great hill with tons of bumps but a really, really smooth edge with about a foot or so of powder. i hit bumps for half the hill, then all powder. my last run was on these soft bump blues that make you skip on your board like crazy, well, i rocked them and didn't skip. a great run to end on.
(informational with feelings)
yesterday was my day off for me and i really needed a break from the stress... so i went skiing. when i woke up, i considered sleeping, but i had to meet phil at 6 so i just got up and after the meeting got the courage to head up to the hills. the first half of the trip i listened to some chill music, cant remember exactly, but my guess would be some reggae i had. the last half i put in some great aesop rock to get me in the mood.
since i have a pass, i got out on the hill right away and went to the chairlift. i haphazardly sat with my friend evan who is a very fast skiier... i went with him and my friend, eric, to a-basin and they made me really scared (edited for mother, i.e. did stupid things on skis)... so that was cool, we caught up a bit and skiied together for a few runs. it was so exhilerating the first run, the snow was awesome, but it was a bit cold. after one run, my body was getting warm though. i was really stressed because there were some loose ends on a closing i had today and i needed to get them tied up, obviously. so i stayed inside for a few minutes after a run or two until they were resolved (it was good because it was warm).
thats when i made my transistion to blacks because i rolled solo and felt like doing bumps. i ended up on blacks all day... i found a great hill with tons of bumps but a really, really smooth edge with about a foot or so of powder. i hit bumps for half the hill, then all powder. i really dont think most of you can fathome what it feels like to glid on powder... its really amazing, honestly. you get this feeling of cloudage and a sense that nothing can hurt because when you fall, it doesn't hurt :) all you want to do is smile and laugh while you glide through the softness.
for four runs, that is what i did, killed myself on bumps then cruised on powder. yes, yes. perfect. my last run was on these soft bump blues that make you skip on your board like crazy, well, i rocked them and didn't skip. i had great training with the big bumps that the little ones were easy and super fun... get little pops while flying down passing tons of boarders and skiiers alike (granted it was a blue :) man,a great run to end on. i ended up exhausted in my car with my super confortable shoes once again (i love the feeling of putting shoes on after where boots all day). cruised home with some fiona apple, what a nice way to travel down the mountain.
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ok, so howd i do? was my 'feeling' version good, worth doing, or should i stick to the short and sweet informational version? was the 'felt' version too wordy? not wordy enough? to informational? help me out. i plan to write a little shpiel(sp?) on my new ipod, but would like some critique before hand :)
out.
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
last week
last week i went snowboarding with elvi and it was the best conditions i have been on in a long time. it was sooo cold last week in denver it scared a lot of people off the hills. we went on thursday and the hill was empty, the wind was nill, and the temp was a warm 20 or so.
it was actually a lot warmer than we thought cause we had to pull a bunch of layers off.
i have been working a ton because i want to and need to. it is good, i feel a lot more productive and things are moving forward even though it can be the slowest time of the year. i am worried i wont have time to get my business plan 2006 in order, but i think next week will be DEAD so i will concentrate on it then.
this week i will probably board again, i might go up to winterpark this time. no one else has tomorrow off, so i might be rolling solo, but that is ok. i dont mind doing that, just ski for a couple hours and chill out a bit, read, relax, think, write... all that good stuff.
simplifing my life is working ok, but still not there. maybe it is just a state of mind really because i do live pretty simply. i dont buy a lot of stuff and i only play with volleyball and music now. if i am really tired i will watch tv, but other than that, it is really quite simple.
i do drive a ton, even to go out with friends and stuff, so i think that might be ultimately what is making it hard for me to feel 'simple.' i need to spend more time in golden. maybe next fall i can get rid of my roomie and set up an office. i am not a big fan of working at home, but if i do it a day or two a week, or a portion of a day everyday, that might help too.
well see,
right now i will be working like a madman and pushing to be 'successful.'
peace.
it was actually a lot warmer than we thought cause we had to pull a bunch of layers off.
i have been working a ton because i want to and need to. it is good, i feel a lot more productive and things are moving forward even though it can be the slowest time of the year. i am worried i wont have time to get my business plan 2006 in order, but i think next week will be DEAD so i will concentrate on it then.
this week i will probably board again, i might go up to winterpark this time. no one else has tomorrow off, so i might be rolling solo, but that is ok. i dont mind doing that, just ski for a couple hours and chill out a bit, read, relax, think, write... all that good stuff.
simplifing my life is working ok, but still not there. maybe it is just a state of mind really because i do live pretty simply. i dont buy a lot of stuff and i only play with volleyball and music now. if i am really tired i will watch tv, but other than that, it is really quite simple.
i do drive a ton, even to go out with friends and stuff, so i think that might be ultimately what is making it hard for me to feel 'simple.' i need to spend more time in golden. maybe next fall i can get rid of my roomie and set up an office. i am not a big fan of working at home, but if i do it a day or two a week, or a portion of a day everyday, that might help too.
well see,
right now i will be working like a madman and pushing to be 'successful.'
peace.
Sunday, December 04, 2005
weekend
well, it was a nice weekend. i had a great time yesterday evening grilling out with my cousins and elvi. it was a nice evening and the chicken was great :) we were going to play cars a bit, but i still haven't dug them up from when i moved (yikes)... we had one deck, but i think we were in the mood to play with more than one... maybe it was just an excuse.
today was a good day, mainly have been working, but felt good to accomplish a bunch and get ready for the week.
now i am off to church.
after church, coffee and more weekly planning. my life will get organized! i am convinced.
i will be mucho busy at work this week and i get to ski (well board) on thursday! yay!
today was a good day, mainly have been working, but felt good to accomplish a bunch and get ready for the week.
now i am off to church.
after church, coffee and more weekly planning. my life will get organized! i am convinced.
i will be mucho busy at work this week and i get to ski (well board) on thursday! yay!
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
sweet chicago
man, i really miss chicago. just the simple pleasure of taking the el downtown, hearing the soft sounds of the tracks and seeing brick upon brick of beautiful brownstones. as i sit here looking out upon madison and wacker streets all i can think of is my time of past.
dont get me wrong, i love denver and if i ever moved back to the middlewest, it would probably be in wisconsin, but chicago always has a place in my heart.
seriously, this place is beautiful. the idea of living a simple life in complicated chicago really really appeals to me. actually, living a simple life really really sounds appealing to me. just a couple more things i need to take care of before that happens.
how can you not look upon the streets of this gritty city and not fall in love with it. its anonimity(sp?) and crazyness combined. how fabulous.
i guess i am really reflective upon simple lifestyles right now. fires, sweaters, movies, games, curled up, no cares yet struggling, low material ownership, thoughts of God, marriage, reclusion, close friends, cooking, no tv... sounds awesome.
i was at my friend randy and sarah's house and was just envious of their downtown madison apartment with lots of hardwood and built-ins. functional obsolencence, beautiful picture windows, slowness of a sunday night. awesome.
i guess i am in a quiet mood right now :)
Sunday, November 27, 2005
ok, ok
so i haven't been that great with updating my blog... but i did get to eat lots of turkey this weekend. that means that everything worked out and all is ok.
beyond the enjoyments of spending quality time relaxing with family and friends, it has been a great weekend to get away from denver for a bit. i haven't had that time alone to think much but i have a couple days of me time in chicago this week so that will make up for it. i look forward to some introspective time again.
the main reason that i haven't updated this site and others is that i kinda fell out of life the last few weeks. i checked out and just worked tons and tons. i wasn't in the mood to do much of anything else (sorry) but thats the truth. sometimes you just get in that mood, and i was there. i am looking forward to this week cause i think it is on the verge of breaking and will break once i get back to town.
i cant promise that i will be a master at this writing stuff, but i am still faithful and writing this and other things in my schedule. i just need to not procrastinate and do it. one of my biggest problems...
so that is fun, right?
anyway i do have time this week to delve more into things but since i got reemed out by everyone about my blog, i thought i would at least send a little update.
beyond the enjoyments of spending quality time relaxing with family and friends, it has been a great weekend to get away from denver for a bit. i haven't had that time alone to think much but i have a couple days of me time in chicago this week so that will make up for it. i look forward to some introspective time again.
the main reason that i haven't updated this site and others is that i kinda fell out of life the last few weeks. i checked out and just worked tons and tons. i wasn't in the mood to do much of anything else (sorry) but thats the truth. sometimes you just get in that mood, and i was there. i am looking forward to this week cause i think it is on the verge of breaking and will break once i get back to town.
i cant promise that i will be a master at this writing stuff, but i am still faithful and writing this and other things in my schedule. i just need to not procrastinate and do it. one of my biggest problems...
so that is fun, right?
anyway i do have time this week to delve more into things but since i got reemed out by everyone about my blog, i thought i would at least send a little update.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
rush of posts
introspective:
so, last friday i had a little meeting with my team lead. we usually sit down and chat about business and all that jazz every week or two. regardless, i gave him my quick 20 minute agenda...
what was on that agenda you might ask? well
1. mission, vision, values -- just starting to write this out (so i thought)
2. internet leads and how to market
3. something else i can remember, probably had something do to with real estate. hehehe (anyways, it will become quite apparent that we never made it to 3, nor 2 for that matter)
so we sit down and i give him the agenda and start out by pulling out this article i found on the CIO website about mission, vision, and values. i said i am just getting into it and plan to read the article and start writing some ideas about it all. you know, the 'couple week' plan.
well, it turned into this hour and half discussion about what i believe and what i deserve. come on, really? (well, it was actually awesome, i needed it and will be doing tons of introspection over the next few months)
the crazy thing is we starting talking about perception (our core self vs. our percieved, or viewed by others, self), fears, self-worth... you name it. it was a good ole fashion counseling session about me discovering things about myself i had no idea were there.
here are a couple of highlights.
relationships... how i relate things:
1. i relate lack of modesty to someone that is condescending. hmmm
2. i relate the fact that when someone rejects me, i feel like i let them down. yikes.
fears...
of course i have a fear of rejection (see relationships part 2)
but i really think i have a fear of success. the second fear is much more of a problem than the first. i think for years i have been trying to combat my fear of rejection. and i have made some headway on it... but i truly dont believe that is my major problem... fear of success is.
anyway, i have to think about this crap for a while. i think i am getting somewhere. well, i might actually be maturing to my age again. this next year i turn 30 and i might actually start acting 30. what a concept.
oh, chicago made me younger. i lost (or didnt mature) for close to 4 years while i was in chicago. that is funny to me. i think i was more mature in high school than i was 3 years ago.
what does all this mean?
so i now have another assignment... before i can even start working on mission, vision, and values, i have to figure out what i truly believe (me, me, me, not others) and what i truly deserve.
i came up with a couple things.. but by tomorrow i will have a bunch more.
I believe in/that...
- nothing is a handout
- work is neccessary for a return
- i am a spiritual being that is driven by something bigger than me (jesus)
I deserve ...
- being compensated well when going a good job
hmmm. its a start.
anyway, i really recommend you all do this. i think it is important for every individual to come up with a mission, vision, values statement that describes who you are. i will post it when it is done.
start with what you believe and deserve. that pricks at the core. then you can extrapolate that to your 'big why' -- what you truly feel is driving you as a person. then translate that to a couple pieces of paper and keep it close. maybe you will discover you are in the wrong job, location... but i truly believe it will help you discover that you have made tons and tons of right decisions because your intuition is ultimately who you are, right?
i am who i am.
so, last friday i had a little meeting with my team lead. we usually sit down and chat about business and all that jazz every week or two. regardless, i gave him my quick 20 minute agenda...
what was on that agenda you might ask? well
1. mission, vision, values -- just starting to write this out (so i thought)
2. internet leads and how to market
3. something else i can remember, probably had something do to with real estate. hehehe (anyways, it will become quite apparent that we never made it to 3, nor 2 for that matter)
so we sit down and i give him the agenda and start out by pulling out this article i found on the CIO website about mission, vision, and values. i said i am just getting into it and plan to read the article and start writing some ideas about it all. you know, the 'couple week' plan.
well, it turned into this hour and half discussion about what i believe and what i deserve. come on, really? (well, it was actually awesome, i needed it and will be doing tons of introspection over the next few months)
the crazy thing is we starting talking about perception (our core self vs. our percieved, or viewed by others, self), fears, self-worth... you name it. it was a good ole fashion counseling session about me discovering things about myself i had no idea were there.
here are a couple of highlights.
relationships... how i relate things:
1. i relate lack of modesty to someone that is condescending. hmmm
2. i relate the fact that when someone rejects me, i feel like i let them down. yikes.
fears...
of course i have a fear of rejection (see relationships part 2)
but i really think i have a fear of success. the second fear is much more of a problem than the first. i think for years i have been trying to combat my fear of rejection. and i have made some headway on it... but i truly dont believe that is my major problem... fear of success is.
anyway, i have to think about this crap for a while. i think i am getting somewhere. well, i might actually be maturing to my age again. this next year i turn 30 and i might actually start acting 30. what a concept.
oh, chicago made me younger. i lost (or didnt mature) for close to 4 years while i was in chicago. that is funny to me. i think i was more mature in high school than i was 3 years ago.
what does all this mean?
so i now have another assignment... before i can even start working on mission, vision, and values, i have to figure out what i truly believe (me, me, me, not others) and what i truly deserve.
i came up with a couple things.. but by tomorrow i will have a bunch more.
I believe in/that...
- nothing is a handout
- work is neccessary for a return
- i am a spiritual being that is driven by something bigger than me (jesus)
I deserve ...
- being compensated well when going a good job
hmmm. its a start.
anyway, i really recommend you all do this. i think it is important for every individual to come up with a mission, vision, values statement that describes who you are. i will post it when it is done.
start with what you believe and deserve. that pricks at the core. then you can extrapolate that to your 'big why' -- what you truly feel is driving you as a person. then translate that to a couple pieces of paper and keep it close. maybe you will discover you are in the wrong job, location... but i truly believe it will help you discover that you have made tons and tons of right decisions because your intuition is ultimately who you are, right?
i am who i am.
Saturday, November 05, 2005
halloween again
ok, i guess i get to re-live the weekend once again. that is fine cause it was pretty fun.
so friday night was a fun night, i actually was able to dj at my friends party. it was pretty tough, a lot more difficult than my previous dj'ing experiences. mostly because these people i did not know and i did not know their music. i heard it went well enough, so that is good. it always seems like i dont have the music people request, but does anybody? how many times at a wedding or a party do you want to hear that one song and they dont have it. well that happens to the best of us.
since i didn't have my true costume quite ready, i just quickly dressed up as an overdone rapper. that is pretty easy for me since i have the clothes and know the attitude :)
saturday rolled around and i did nothing much than recover. the night was quite long and quite late. fun, yes, but took a toll on my maximizing saturday. ahhh well, i guess i just went to work and did that for a couple hours then ran off to my house to relax. my friend, joe, convinced me to go to his house for a little gathering of folk. he wanted me to control the music, but i was done with that :) so i just showed up in my grubs and chatted with folk for an hour or two then went home. ahh sweet sleep.
so sunday rolled around and i had a big day infront of me. i told a bunch of folk that i was going to have a bbq at the house, costumes and all. that means i spent the morning preparing for it and then the rest of day entertaining and cooking and all that stuff that is required to host a bbq. it takes lots of work, but was definitely fun.
oh, i dressed up as peewee herman. cant quite do the character, so i kept quiet, did a little 'tequila dance' and kept cooking. i thought i could pull off a little peewee impersonation, but alas, i am not that talented :) might be a good thing though, peewee is kinda scary.
anyway, i spent the rest of the week working and catching up with reality. i dressed up as myself, mainly and went out and lived.
this weekend, i am just working. i am done for the day... about to do some dinner and a movie (i think i will watch saw II) and call it a saturday. tomorrow i will be working all day, do a little open house and then hit up my church.
after skipping church last weekend (bbq) i am looking forward to it again, kinda miss it.
later y'all
so friday night was a fun night, i actually was able to dj at my friends party. it was pretty tough, a lot more difficult than my previous dj'ing experiences. mostly because these people i did not know and i did not know their music. i heard it went well enough, so that is good. it always seems like i dont have the music people request, but does anybody? how many times at a wedding or a party do you want to hear that one song and they dont have it. well that happens to the best of us.
since i didn't have my true costume quite ready, i just quickly dressed up as an overdone rapper. that is pretty easy for me since i have the clothes and know the attitude :)
saturday rolled around and i did nothing much than recover. the night was quite long and quite late. fun, yes, but took a toll on my maximizing saturday. ahhh well, i guess i just went to work and did that for a couple hours then ran off to my house to relax. my friend, joe, convinced me to go to his house for a little gathering of folk. he wanted me to control the music, but i was done with that :) so i just showed up in my grubs and chatted with folk for an hour or two then went home. ahh sweet sleep.
so sunday rolled around and i had a big day infront of me. i told a bunch of folk that i was going to have a bbq at the house, costumes and all. that means i spent the morning preparing for it and then the rest of day entertaining and cooking and all that stuff that is required to host a bbq. it takes lots of work, but was definitely fun.
oh, i dressed up as peewee herman. cant quite do the character, so i kept quiet, did a little 'tequila dance' and kept cooking. i thought i could pull off a little peewee impersonation, but alas, i am not that talented :) might be a good thing though, peewee is kinda scary.
anyway, i spent the rest of the week working and catching up with reality. i dressed up as myself, mainly and went out and lived.
this weekend, i am just working. i am done for the day... about to do some dinner and a movie (i think i will watch saw II) and call it a saturday. tomorrow i will be working all day, do a little open house and then hit up my church.
after skipping church last weekend (bbq) i am looking forward to it again, kinda miss it.
later y'all
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