Friday, April 28, 2006

mind overload

have you ever been in a situation where you just have total (i mean total) mind overload. to the point where it just makes you shut down.

i thought that event might be an all-of-the-sudden-too-much-information thingy. and i suppose that has happened to me in various forms in the past. but what i *actually* found is that it can build and build over time. and, quite honestly (even though i have started the last three sentances with predicates) that time is now... or close to it.

being involved with two jobs running parallel, learning tons and tons of new things, coaching tournaments (teenagers remind you) in places like greeley and dallas, and not getting home for periods of 12 - 16 hours on average everyday, makes you a little crazy. the issue isn't the things i mentioned above... really. it's the fact that i dont have time to decompress, debrief, chill.

where did my hobbies go? why can't i go home (albeit very late) and just depend on a few hobbies to put my mind at ease. why, when soo tired, do i just go to sleep without any mind dump. i think i actually sleep fairly restlessly and in doing so, perpetuate the situation with staying tired.

so, that means i need a break. i need to remember what it means to relax. what it feels like to not think about work. what it feels like to have fun around hobbies, people and not have those be afterthoughts or squeeze-ins.

what does this all mean? i am a *horrible* time manager. dont the *greatest of great* in the biz world say to book your vacations first and then work around that. hmmm, good idea. i am going to get an ulcer and have my head explode if i am not careful.

what does this lead to? i am taking the day off tomorrow!!!! i am excited. haven't had a day off in a while... a serious day off. most of the time i just have a psuedo day off. mind you i still have to do a little work, just a little, but i wont take any new calls, hey, i may even change my voicemail to tell people that i am decompressing, nah, but i could.

so here is my plan (very loose by the way, so dont worry):
wake up earlyish
get a big, fat diner breakfast... preferably at the breakfast queen.
put my shevles up in the garage
design some shelves for my snow gear (garage) and lps (room)
put a new car stereo in my car
grab a beer with seth
put my air conditioner on craig's list.
watch a movie at the movie theatres.
call it a night.

i am looking forward to it.


Monday, April 17, 2006



what a fantastic easter. it was quite enjoyable from the sunrise service at red rocks to the evening dinner with friends and family. what a great day too, i think it was about 78 degrees outside (like it is today) and just really easy.

now i am back to the grind, working two jobs and only really have time for one. i also am going to dallas this weekend for the girls volleyball tourney. that should actually be pretty fun because once we are done coaching (all day though) we are free. the chaparones are the parents, we are just the coaches.

so i will be trying to get things all tied up this week so i can use this weekend for enjoyment and for work. we will have to see what will happen.

i guess thats the boring updates, otherwise just been thinking alot about my life... like what i want to be when i grow up sort of stuff. i mean, it keeps changing. i always think that "this is it," but something else always comes up. i really thought i would be doing real estate for a long time, but then again, i might be switching to more of a management role. who knows, that is the plan but i am expecting things to change here in the next few weeks anyway.

talk about confusing, i leave in the morning and dont get home until pretty late (usually) and start all over again. easter was my only day off i have had in a long time and it was full (mostly). i loved easter, but i need a day where i can just lay in the grass after a nice hike, then finish building some stuff in the garage, then grab a nice dinner and call it a day. those lazy days of summer, that is what i really need.

sorry for the latest post, it was more of a 'this is my day' kinda blog, instead of 'this is how i am doing and feeling' which i prefer. guess i just need a break.

Thursday, April 06, 2006

busy bee


i am officially busy. last night was the first night i got home from work before 9pm! what a way to relax. my friend, phil, had a great birthday party last night and it was soo good to have great food and great conversation.

let's see: beer, corn on the cob, marinated chicken, mash potatoes, yummy guacamole, italian sausages, chocolate cake and ice cream, and strawberries. That was a fantastic dinner.

I was going to take today off and enjoy the mountains a bit. heather is in town (well, in dillon) but my day seems to just get booked really fast. now i have appointments from noon till 7pm and then i get to relax a bit tonight. crazy.

so, i think i am going to go to common grounds near the highlands and do some reflection. i have a lot on my mind and havent had a lot of time to think on my own. it is tough when you fill your life up with stuff and just dont take a lot of time for yourself. i did sleep in a bit today so that i could 'relax' a bit on my day off, but really, i want a day off!

maybe next thursday i will take off no matter what, yeah, i think that is a good idea.

alright, sorry for the lack of content blog post. i want to write some good thought stuff down and i might be able to a little later. i felt like i was falling behind so i wanted to get something out there.